There is a lump in my throat. It grows every time I am around someone who I think has a dominant trait. It's painful and makes swallowing unbearable. At the same time, my eyes well and large droplets fall down my cheeks.

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This has been years in the making. Every time it happens, it's exhausting and self-perpetuating. It reaffirms, 'There is something wrong with me'. Those in positions of power remain cold and collected, while I feel vulnerable and small... All over again.

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I wish people knew these responses were not done for attention. I do not willingly carry this lump. Talking therapies have helped permeate it, uncovering some important learnings and showing the potential gold within. But I need more than just to be told that the only offer for further support is antidepressants.